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When I First Saw Rockets

by Hidoux

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1.
Rockets 03:37
When I first saw rockets They were crashing down on you There was nothing I could do They just kept on crashing When we first found lovers They were hiding on the moon Oh, you precious few But we ended it too soon And the world stopped turning When we locked our eyes on you There was nothing left to do Just sit there in our view When you first heard sirens Through the racket and the din Through the sound of engines And you prayed for silence... We plant our flags on the faces of stars We plant our flags on the faces of gods And the endless night we see when we look in mirrors And the endless night that we see It's coming... It's coming...
2.
Lone Wolves 06:04
I couldn't keep it together I fall apart almost every night I'm here for whatever Panic seeping in I'm alright Trying hard to get things right Breaking down for an evening Like fire in the afterglow Oh this drink got me thinking I am tied down feeling low Working hard to get things right Come, my others Come, my lone wolves Come, moving out All together And if we fall Like we did before Come, my dance floors Come, my silence Come, static noise All together Ring the alarm It's a call to arms Left ones Right ones Are you listening Left ones Right ones Are we speaking now Left ones Right ones Come on And no I cannot breathe again Stuck inside for another day Believed the lies that are in my head And once again won't communicate Trying hard to get things right But I have found some truths here You can see it in my haunted mind It's ok to be one of us To be one of the left behind Working hard to get things right Come, my others Come, my lone wolves Come, moving out All together And if we fall Like we did before Come, my dance floors Come, my silence Come, static noise All together Ring the alarm It's a call to arms We're missing now We're misunderstood We're falling down And thrown right out I'm sending you A dream or two So listen now We won't become fools gold
3.
I'm in love with the lightning machine Fantasies feel so real to me I know It'll make the show And all in all I'm sick again And I can't breathe Can't go outside today I'm trapped in my head Believed the lies they said And once again won't communicate Don't you dare cry My haunted mind May leave me behind (Unless there's something secret here) And oh, Don't you dare try You're staring at the walls (Where the ghosts almost always appear Up here...) Did you ever want to talk about it Did you ever want to hold my body down On the dirty ground In love, in love, in love Did you ever want to choke my shout Did you ever want to slit my stupid throat Watch me bleed out In love, in love, in love Be a man, be a man be a man, oh Take it from me, baby You don't want to bow down Peer pressure, babe Do what you need to do Listen to them, boy and They'll add your skull to their thrones Only listen to you I'm in love with the lightning machine I know I'm trapped in my head And I can't breathe Can't go outside today I'm trapped in my head And oh, Don't you dare cry My haunted mind May leave me behind (Unless there's something secret here) And oh, Don't you dare try You're staring at the walls (Where the ghosts almost always appear Up here...) Did you ever want to talk about it Did you ever want to hold my body down On the dirty ground In love, in love, in love Did you ever want to choke my shout Did you ever want to slit my stupid throat Watch me bleed out In love, in love, in love
4.
You Never been there before Because I Shoot bullets down at your door You are a lover And I love you that way You are a lover And I love you that way And you Fit me like a henna tattoo And we Move like we embody you I am a fire Douse me out again I am a fire Douse me out again, oh I got it babe I got it babe I got it babe I got it baby I'm underwater babe I'm underwater babe I'm underwater babe I'm underwater baby Me Stuck inside archaic arcades that I'm missing Peaking over blackout charades I told your mother I love the way you shake it babe I told your mother I love the way you shake it babe You Never been there before Because I Shoot bullets down at your door You are a lover And I love you that way You are a lover And I love you that way I got it babe I got it babe I got it babe I got it baby I'm underwater babe I'm underwater babe I'm underwater babe I'm underwater baby I strain my days inside a chain I keep my head below insane I jump out loud I shout up high I see you there I don't know why I'm scared to breathe I'm scared to see What I will know and what I'll be I might be faced Possibility Without you there No you and me I got it babe I got it babe I got it babe I got it baby I'm underwater babe I'm underwater babe I'm underwater babe I'm underwater baby
5.
Inosculate 04:26
I tried so hard to understand I wasted all my time I hold it in the palm of my hand And no-one gets out alive So tear me down My limb from my limb You never let me win I feel my breath now coming in Only to tear me down again And I Into the unknown But you Wouldn't let me go I dream of oblivion I'm wasting my time But how was I to know And I Into the unknown But you Wouldn't let me go I dream of oblivion I'm losing my mind But how was I to know I'm sorry I internalised The thoughts that laid me bare We're stronger when we move combined Inosculate in mid-air I focused in And I aligned And heaven knows I'm there Well time moves on And days go by But I would have left me behind And I Into the unknown But you Wouldn't let me go I dream of oblivion I'm wasting my time But how was I to know And I Into the unknown But you Wouldn't let me go I dream of oblivion I'm losing my mind But how was I to know I waste my time I waste my time I won't get through I won't get through Watch days go by The days go by No-one gets out Gets out alive And I Into the unknown But you Wouldn't let me go I dream of oblivion I'm wasting my time But how was I to know And I Into the unknown But you Wouldn't let me go I dream of oblivion I'm losing my mind But how was I to know
6.
Promises 05:31
Oh, I filled you up With fake promises I don't look down I won't look now When I am king I'll do anything To see you smile To see your smile again Oh, I'd love to know What you're thinking now You've looked around You've looked around I want to get out, out, out She screams in her head I need to get out, out, out Again and again and again and again and a... I'm waking up I never knew what you wanted I know that I I'm losing again I'm waking up I never knew what you wanted I know that I I'm losing again Don't cast me aside You know that I need it So tell me to hold on, tell me to hold on I'm a beast when appeased Spit blood from my teeth again So tell me to hold on (hold on) You know what I am Won't call me a dreamer So tell me to hold on, tell me to hold on You're afraid if I dream You don't think I'd leave it now So tell me to hold on (hold on) I'm waking up I never knew what you wanted I know that I I'm losing again I'm waking up I never knew what you wanted I know that I I'm losing again
7.
Tell him if he blinks he'll still see the Sun Tell him there's a hell and there's a heaven Now he knows his dreams are just playthings Nothing to ponder on or dwell in Wish he couldn't see Really it's a lie So he'll think everything gonna be alright Tell him that you don't know either Tell him that you'll make it up together Tell him that one day he will reach the sky Looking at it's best just before the Sun dies Clouds still bruising full of water Knowing what is coming straight after Tell him he can handle everything in sight Doesn't need to split down the middle inside Dreaming's only better without meaning Here they come again still creeping There's neon spiders on my wall Drunk is the Sun And the moon's so cruel Though I run I won't make it Close my eyes I can't face it Waking up in bad places Hoping I'm hallucinating Tell him he can breathe He can breathe now Ghosts still screaming silently now He can drink all night in the gallery Until he feel divine at his mastery Tell him son Do not be afraid Shake your head Come back from the masquerade Watch his eyes turn red as he enter night Flying up high on his wings on light Watch his fists bleed as he hits the sky Blood on the clouds of another sunrise Beating to the sounds of laughter More and more crowds Yeah, they gather Crying so hard in the face of gods How many glass ceilings have you got Now he knows his dreams are just playthings Nothing to ponder on or dwell in There's neon spiders crawling now Drunk is the son And the moon's so cold Though I run I won't make it Close my eyes I can't face it Waking up in bad places Hoping I'm hallucinating You say the stars won't shine for you Stars hear me Help her please I've seen the skies all set alight Chinese lanterns Help her please I know they're golden eyes Looking down Help her please And all those beautiful nights Under the moonlight We were above it all We were above it all Though I run I won't make it Close my eyes I can't face it Waking up in bad places Hoping I'm hallucinating
8.
Outgunned 05:21
I'm outgunned I might not be the one So far I know I can't relate Come back Can't get the words through To you Two A.M. angel And she sings... I'm outgunned Reflections trying to mock me My eyes Keep twitching to the locked door I know I'm trying to relate To you Two A.M. angel Hold her back She can see her horizons Is she afraid to be Only her Can see she's arriving Don't know what she'll need You're not alone You know You're not an island You're not the autumn leaves Hold her back She fears her horizons Is she afraid to be I'm outgunned I'm out I'm outgunned My head is in a glass cage My eyes Fixed on that locked door I'm spinning, spinning, spinning, spinning right round Mirrors You know I can't relate I'm outgunned I'm out There's a way out Just move, move, move Take hold of my hand and They'll be no horizon Don't give up on me You could have it all my love Don't hear the sirens calling Watch the stars falling Sleepwalk the streets are empty Out here we're never lonely Don't give up on me You could have it all my love Not feeling like tomorrow Wash the universe away Drinking away emotions Now I don't feel anything Don't give up on me You could have it all my love Carve your name in, beautiful Stars fall down like waterfalls History, you won't know me I'm escaping to my dreams Don't give up on me You could have it all my love
9.
Heartlands 04:54
I will drift into the Sun And remember everyone I've ever met on my way And I will try to find the words to say When we're old just forget me I hope you're somewhere that makes you happy And when the time comes to leave your bones And birds come to take you home They'll be singing... Heartlands my dear There's no getting out of here Gold dust my friend You will chase it to your end This time I won't pretend Yeah, your boy, he failed again And my mind is all made up I swear this time I'm giving up Think of love, angels and fools All the things that make up you I wish the world could hear me fall I wish the world could hear me at all They'd hear me singing... Heartlands my dear There's no getting out of here Gold dust my friend You will chase it to your end Well don't you look at me Don't you look at me Don't you look into my soul And see the worst of me
10.
End transmission Got to stop drinking And let the drugs sweat out The night is closing in It's coming End transmission Got to stop thinking That I'll let you down The Sun is rising up It's coming We're both scared to walk down the street We both can't make ends meet We both cried in Reichenbach We're both aware of what we lack And we both keep the curtains closed Oh, we're both lost on our own roads We're both unexceptional We're both trying not to fall We both couldn't leave our bed We're both trapped in our own heads We're both too tired to eat We both bleed by the teeth End transmission Got to stop drinking And let the drugs sweat out The night is closing in It's coming End transmission Got to stop thinking That I'll let you down The Sun is rising up It's coming Oh and we both can't look at the stars We'll both never get that far We both tear our eyes from the sky We're both afraid to die We're both too scared to sleep Oh we both at times hate me We both had a terrible year We both dream of our fears And we both jumped up in the air Oh we both know life's not fair We both need to know love And we both fear whats above And we both need to feel loved And we both need to feel loved And we both need to feel loved And we both need to feel loved Oh we both need to feel loved And we both need to feel loved And we both need to feel loved And we both need to feel loved End transmission Got to stop drinking And let the drugs sweat out The night is closing in It's coming End transmission Got to stop thinking That I'll let you down The Sun is rising up It's coming Oh... And the endless night We see when we look in mirrors And the endless night That we see It's coming It's coming And the endless night We see when we look in mirrors And the endless night That we see It's coming It's coming...

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released October 26, 2018

Synthesizers, Keyboards, Bass guitar, Electric guitar, Acoustic guitar, Drum machines, Hand claps, Egg shaker, Vocals, Erhu, Moroccan turtle-skin drum, Melodica, Field recordings, Noise, Production, Songwriting, Mixing, Engineering, Lyrics by Jonny Howells/Hidoux

Live drums on "End Transmission" by Joey Vetter from AP Mode

Mastered by Jack Morrison on behalf of Warganized Records

Album Artwork by Jonny Howells and Emma Jackson

Photography by Emma Jackson

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Hidoux Oxford, UK

Rising artist Hidoux creates music designed to be a twist on the formulas of Pop Music. His albums are often stylistically mixed, ranging from "bop-y" and dance-able Electropop full of buzzing synths, to Psychedelic Rock and Acoustic music focused on texture and lyrics. Always willing to experiment and always pushing forward. ... more

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